Search my heart. Do I trust in the Lord with all of my heart? Am I leaning on my own understanding? When Jesus approached Jerusalem he gave two disciples a set of instructions that would have been impossible for someone to predict could happen to find a donkey and her colt. (Matthew 21:1-5) The same was true when they were told to prepare the Passover, the Last Supper. (Mark 14:12-16)
Do I think about (acknowledge) God and his Son in all my ways? Am I always mindful of God? Do I serve him with a willing and faithful heart? Am I like Nathanael who was under the fig tree before Philip brought him to Jesus? (John 1:48-50)
The word that is hard here is “all”; “all my heart” and “all my ways”. Is there a closet in my heart that does not trust in the Lord? Is there a secluded hidden path that I take that leads away from the Lord?
I see today is a day of self-examination questions. I start out the day with the simple prayer as I shower, “Cleanse me with the blood. Fill me with the Spirit. Show me your way and give me the power, strength, will, and what is needed to carry it out.” I am given what is needed. Yet, I was reminded Sunday when I watched the 2016 movie “Experimenter” of the flawed human soul. We try to convince ourselves we are good and yet willingly submit ourselves to leadership that leads us down horrendous ways.